PMS Suxxs...

Enough said. PMS sucks… Big time too. I’m such an unbearable monster few days ago with my flaring temper.

First, I’m feeling angry and now I’m feeling slightly emo as comes next Monday, my 1st born is going to school, well a pre-school that is. I guess I should be glad that I have 3 hours of free time, but why am I not happy.

The feeling is so complicated. I’m glad that she achieved another milestone, yet I’m sad that I lose her for that 3 hours and with a blink of eye, she’ll be attending primary school where I’m gonna lose my baby for the whole day.

My baby’s no longer a baby but a big girl now. Sigh…

Home Alone

Hubs left me home alone with the girls tonight to attend a dinner that costs him RM 50. Well, it’s actually a dinner with the Liverpool legends aka ex-players of Liverpool team. He remembered his camera but he forgot to take along his Liverpool memorial book which I bought for his birthday last year.

I did suggested that he should make a detour home to get the book to be autographed by the legends but he deemed that it would be too troublesome for the driving to and fro and asking for the autographs way after the photo &  autograph session. Well, it’s his choice. If it would be me, I would have drove back to get the book.

Anyway, here I am, alone in the messy house. By right I should be happy that the girls are in their la-la land and hub’s out, so I’m having some well deserved ‘ME’ time, but I’m feeling rather lonely now. Sigh… Life’s contradicting, I’m finally getting something that I yearn for and I’m not really enjoying it now.

Being alone makes me think a lot. It’s not always good to think so much, at least to me. Well, better find something to do to occupy my time. I still need to stay awake so I can deactivate the house alarm after 1am. If not the whole condo would be awaken by our house alarm.

Counting My Blessings

Everything seems too overwhelmed to me, at least. I snapped at the girls & hubs easily, without much provoking needed. That’s how bad my mood is now. I really need to start recalling the happy moments that we had to balance my emotions now.

I SHOULD be HAPPY because:

1. We managed to spend our much needed time together as a family before hubs is needed at the shop for 24-7 again.

2. We went to Genting Highlands & Cameron Highlands together with the in-laws and the girls are having so much fun there.

3.Has a family dinner with the in-laws in conjunction of Princess & father-in-law’s birthday in May.

4.The girls are in good shape & health, apart from some minor illness (fever, cold, flu)

5.I finally have the courage to snip my long hair short and on cloud nine over the compliments that most people gave.

6.We finally re-organize the house and the living room look so much better with Hubs Pepsi collections on the wall.

7.Bought myself a new PINK camera. :P

Felt much more better, at least for now. Well, I guess I should be doing this 'Counting my blessings' exersice more. :P

A Beginning

When I was a first time mother 3 years ago, never would I thought motherhood is so tough. I prep myself with whatever baby books on the shelf though I was told that my motherly instinct would kick in once baby arrives. Sad to say that my so called motherly instincts did not kick in at all.


No books prep me on how sluggish and depressed I felt after giving birth, the books certainly did not prep me on how loud & long my babies could cry.


2 babies later, I’m still a learning mother and hope to share my mothering blunders so that other mothers out there would learn from my mistakes and learn more from other mothers.